And I would search everywhere
Just to hear your call,
And walk upon stranger roads than this one
In a world I used to know before.
For now I've lost everything,
I give to you my soul.
The meaning of all that I believed before
Escapes me in this world of none,
I miss you more.

--Genesis

I miss Malene.  I miss all of you. I keep writing this post and then deleting and writing and then deleting.  I hate sounding so "poor poor me." I'm a fifty one year old adult last I checked.  Hell with it. Its late, I'm going to bed.  Just nice to say it, even if to the empty electronic air.  How could any of you possibly understand what I feel? You have your familys, tradition, and surrounded by the wonders you have been privy to all your lives.  Distance and time mean nothing to any of you, you can "reach out and touch" one another in an instant.

Mie Mahre, marrd du Alban.
Na'an Mahre, na'an nos. :(
Myll vharn.
Te han sirrn. xxxoooo

It's been very long since I posted here and now the only reason I am doing so is an attempt to contact mie mahre. Miss you!!!!!!!! Stars above girls, write me, will you?

Should I stay or should I go now?
If I go there could be trouble,
if I stay there could be double,
So ya gotta let me know
Should I stay or should I go?

Hmmmm---Actually, I think I should go.
Just need some info---trying to make plans, organize. Need to know what needs to be done.
Sent email.

Qi Mahre,

Hope all is well, healing, and mending. Looking forward to when we can visit again. Blessings to all of you and sweet dreams.
Ghaven dear mahre.

I have started and deleted this post many times.
First I was excited by the upcoming visit, and now I am completely cut off with no way to get a hold of anyone except by emails that are unanswered, and I don't even know why.
Talk about the extreme opposites.
I feel as if I am being childish somehow by how I am feeling and writing it, but all of this has been very painful for me.
It's been over a month now.

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The wind, blowing through the leaves of the trees, a good wind, with good energy. Did you ever notice how that sound of wind brushing leaves, is the same as waves crashing on a shore of an ocean?

Its been far too long since I saw the ocean. I want to take my kids there, for it isn't until you have personally seen and felt the ocean, that you can understand the sheer vastness of it. Words fall short of describing it.

So I close my eyes and listen to the wind and let it take me to the oceanside, to a beach where none is present save me and a few gulls.

here a twit, there a twit

So, there's this person. And this person commented on a vid made by a sister. And this person was rude and condescending, she implied that making the video was an evil act and mocked my friend. When a few of us responded to her nonsense, she took it upon herself to send each of us a copy of this huge email she wrote, replying to our comments.
I had thought I had gotten to the point on the 'tube that the opinions of strangers about me really have no effect on me. They're strangers. Why should I care? But this--I guess it was how she talked to my sisters that really angered me. Mocking, condescending, strutting about using her vocabulary as if she were trying to convince us(and herself) how amazingly intelligent she is and also trying to prove(with links) how so much more physically beautiful she is than any of us. Did any of US do MODELING?? As if we really cared, for heaven's sake. And also, quoting her husband as if he were a messenger of God, and that we should swoon at his feet as she undoubtedly dose. I wonder what will happen when she realizes he's human? His O-so-wise-words regarding us and our spirituality was SO off the mark, it was pathetic. So much for his credibility.
She so spoke out of turn and was so damn insulting to my mahre that I admit, I was offended. Very offended. Want to write a scathing response and push her face into it offended.
I wonder what the MGs think about it? Would they say--okay Lynn, calm down, who cares what this loudmouth says? She's a bimbo. A moron.
Yes true. But I still really, really want to shove her face into it!

Ahhhh, that felt gooooood.