The wind, blowing through the leaves of the trees, a good wind, with good energy. Did you ever notice how that sound of wind brushing leaves, is the same as waves crashing on a shore of an ocean?

Its been far too long since I saw the ocean. I want to take my kids there, for it isn't until you have personally seen and felt the ocean, that you can understand the sheer vastness of it. Words fall short of describing it.

So I close my eyes and listen to the wind and let it take me to the oceanside, to a beach where none is present save me and a few gulls.

here a twit, there a twit

So, there's this person. And this person commented on a vid made by a sister. And this person was rude and condescending, she implied that making the video was an evil act and mocked my friend. When a few of us responded to her nonsense, she took it upon herself to send each of us a copy of this huge email she wrote, replying to our comments.
I had thought I had gotten to the point on the 'tube that the opinions of strangers about me really have no effect on me. They're strangers. Why should I care? But this--I guess it was how she talked to my sisters that really angered me. Mocking, condescending, strutting about using her vocabulary as if she were trying to convince us(and herself) how amazingly intelligent she is and also trying to prove(with links) how so much more physically beautiful she is than any of us. Did any of US do MODELING?? As if we really cared, for heaven's sake. And also, quoting her husband as if he were a messenger of God, and that we should swoon at his feet as she undoubtedly dose. I wonder what will happen when she realizes he's human? His O-so-wise-words regarding us and our spirituality was SO off the mark, it was pathetic. So much for his credibility.
She so spoke out of turn and was so damn insulting to my mahre that I admit, I was offended. Very offended. Want to write a scathing response and push her face into it offended.
I wonder what the MGs think about it? Would they say--okay Lynn, calm down, who cares what this loudmouth says? She's a bimbo. A moron.
Yes true. But I still really, really want to shove her face into it!

Ahhhh, that felt gooooood.

Stars on thars

So, I've been thinking about and missing Malene a lot lately, so what do I see in my tea cup yesterday? Uh huh. You guessed it. No I didn't take a picture of it. Sometimes, it is just best to keep it in my mind. :) In fact, to be honest, I saw a smiley in two tea cups. You see I make my tea in one cup, to get the amount of water just right, and brew it. Then when I want to use my big blueberry cup, I just pour it in. Otherwise, it never comes out right. So when I came back to make a second cup of tea, I used both cups and there was one in each. And just to clue you in on how lame I am at trusting what I see and trusting it actually *means* something, I wanted even *more* of a sign that it was her, know what I mean? I even apologize to the air---sorry I am so lame! And sorry I miss you, it's selfish.

So this morning, after not getting hardly any sleep and after being under the weather for about a week, plus taking care of my kids who were out ; one all week, one two days, from school with a donw andout virus, and my husband who hasn't been healthy since October 2nd, and has really been sick for two weeks off and on and --am I distracted? NNOOOOOooooo.

Where was I??

Oh yeah, this morning. I went out into the kitchen and started stacking the dirty dishes. I picked up my coffee cup from yesterday(yes coffee cup, I had that AND tea), and glanced in it and there was this star on the bottom, formed from the bit of coffee. Hey cool, a pentagram, I thought in a daze. Looked closer, no, too many points. Hmmm, the star like the mahre use? I counted thepoints (Now don't laugh. I said I was out of it) Oh six. Nooo, that's not right, theirs has more than that. Sure a pretty star though . . .

Meanwhile, hours and hours later . . .I actually went to a few channels to see if anyone was around, see what was up and I eventually noticed the amount of points on the star on the pages.

Oookaaayyy. Something trying to tell me someone? Just call me Miss delerious. I sure hope I sleep through the night. Part of it was my fault, last night. I wear a CPAP mask at night for sleep apnea and you know? I am SICK of it and just couldn't get myself to put it on. So naturally, my body, needing to breath, silly it, woke me up so many times until I finally got the darn mask on. And I was just relaxing, falling to sleep when I heard a plaintive soft cry: "mmmoooommmmyyyy??"
I did get to sleep finally.

Just going through a difficult time on so many levels I'm surprised my brain hasn't imploded. But hey! I am amazon woman!

To mie mahre that I wrote emails to, I sincerely hope that they weren't as scrambled as my brain was when I wrote them. And I also hope I'm not as big a pain in the ass as I fear I am. I really don't want to complicate your lives, and I'm sorry that I have.

On a lighter note I am trying to get together some more recent pictures of me and my family to send out to you. :)

Brain is fading, gotta quit blogging and go bedding.

If there is a blank post below this, just ignore it. Was feeling bad the other night, needed some attention. Ack. Time to erase!!

I have been doing much musing and meandering, yet have not been able to express it in words.

A big hello and hug to all mahre, Mukveh, Sireii, otherwise. Like I said, a lot going on in the deep recesses of my fevered brain---Bwahahahahahaaaaaaaaa

Oops.

Excuse me(Back beast! Back I say!!!!!!!!!!!)

*ahem*

Anyway. A lot going on in my mind, but having difficulty expressing it. Just want to say I cherish each and every one of you (even Cee) and appreciate all the recipes for mashed animal brains. (Those who don't know, just kidding on that last part!!)

Life is sleepy, but good.
Talk to you all soon.
Can't wait for June.

ghaven sirrn mie mahr, sukvha heyr.

Miss you mie mahre. Hope to hear from you soon. Hope all is well.
xxxooo

Where oh where would my teachers be?
Who will teach more Manfahi to me?
Brave ones, daring ones
are all sisters mine
They're gonna need it
to brave this rhyme.
Not to mention, giving language classes
To one whose language-learning
is as slow as molasses.

Hey mie mahre,

Been awhile since last I wrote out musings. I'm feeling better about things. :) Still want to do "it". Think I will in a few years down the road, when the kids are older and less vulnerable.

Soooo, mie mahre, who wants this blog to become private?? I'm hip if you all would like that, and I'm okay with keeping it as is too. We can wait and see if YouTube gets too annoying.

Also, if any of you notice a comment by someone named "Mark", that would be my older brother. He'll be flitting in and out. He's good. No worries.

Summer is flying by over on this side of the world. It must be so weird celebrating the times of the year in the opposite season you are used to, those over in kiwi land.
I was going to post somemore photos, but I just realized how tired I am!! Grrrr. ah well, what can you do? Maybe I should get to bed *before* midnight.
Namr ir's te

Speaking of antelope :) . . .

Several times in our trip, as we were hurtling down the straight stretch of plains highway, the speed limit 75mph (WooHoo!!), we would go through an area where we would spot one prong horned antelope after another, sometimes a solitary one, most often in groups of two and three. Now have you ever tried to take a photograph out of the window of a moving vehicle? Its---uhhh---challenging.
I wanted a photo of a buck. I saw one or two out the driver's side window, looking past my husband, getting a brief glimpse of the antelope sitting in the grass, their black horns visible. So I readied myself and my camera to take photos out my side of the car and so began the joke. The fact is, every time I was ready to take a photo, *every single buck* was out the *driver's* side! It got to be really funny after awhile. I tried and got a couple pics of antelope--all does--and called it a day. I figured, next time.
When "next time" came about, would you just know it but it started up all over again? And in addition to the Bucks picking on me, everytime I put my camera away, groups started to appear out MY side!
Good news is I got a couple pics, and in fact a Buck in Yellowstone made up for all the rest. :)

This was the most antelope I had ever seen in my life, more than all the trips out into the plains put together. They are so beautiful


If you click on the photo, any photo, it will open it up nice and big on a new page. :)