I have started and deleted this post many times.
First I was excited by the upcoming visit, and now I am completely cut off with no way to get a hold of anyone except by emails that are unanswered, and I don't even know why.
Talk about the extreme opposites.
I feel as if I am being childish somehow by how I am feeling and writing it, but all of this has been very painful for me.
It's been over a month now.