Should I stay or should I go now?
If I go there could be trouble,
if I stay there could be double,
So ya gotta let me know
Should I stay or should I go?

Hmmmm---Actually, I think I should go.
Just need some info---trying to make plans, organize. Need to know what needs to be done.
Sent email.

Qi Mahre,

Hope all is well, healing, and mending. Looking forward to when we can visit again. Blessings to all of you and sweet dreams.
Ghaven dear mahre.

I have started and deleted this post many times.
First I was excited by the upcoming visit, and now I am completely cut off with no way to get a hold of anyone except by emails that are unanswered, and I don't even know why.
Talk about the extreme opposites.
I feel as if I am being childish somehow by how I am feeling and writing it, but all of this has been very painful for me.
It's been over a month now.

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The wind, blowing through the leaves of the trees, a good wind, with good energy. Did you ever notice how that sound of wind brushing leaves, is the same as waves crashing on a shore of an ocean?

Its been far too long since I saw the ocean. I want to take my kids there, for it isn't until you have personally seen and felt the ocean, that you can understand the sheer vastness of it. Words fall short of describing it.

So I close my eyes and listen to the wind and let it take me to the oceanside, to a beach where none is present save me and a few gulls.