Stars on thars

So, I've been thinking about and missing Malene a lot lately, so what do I see in my tea cup yesterday? Uh huh. You guessed it. No I didn't take a picture of it. Sometimes, it is just best to keep it in my mind. :) In fact, to be honest, I saw a smiley in two tea cups. You see I make my tea in one cup, to get the amount of water just right, and brew it. Then when I want to use my big blueberry cup, I just pour it in. Otherwise, it never comes out right. So when I came back to make a second cup of tea, I used both cups and there was one in each. And just to clue you in on how lame I am at trusting what I see and trusting it actually *means* something, I wanted even *more* of a sign that it was her, know what I mean? I even apologize to the air---sorry I am so lame! And sorry I miss you, it's selfish.

So this morning, after not getting hardly any sleep and after being under the weather for about a week, plus taking care of my kids who were out ; one all week, one two days, from school with a donw andout virus, and my husband who hasn't been healthy since October 2nd, and has really been sick for two weeks off and on and --am I distracted? NNOOOOOooooo.

Where was I??

Oh yeah, this morning. I went out into the kitchen and started stacking the dirty dishes. I picked up my coffee cup from yesterday(yes coffee cup, I had that AND tea), and glanced in it and there was this star on the bottom, formed from the bit of coffee. Hey cool, a pentagram, I thought in a daze. Looked closer, no, too many points. Hmmm, the star like the mahre use? I counted thepoints (Now don't laugh. I said I was out of it) Oh six. Nooo, that's not right, theirs has more than that. Sure a pretty star though . . .

Meanwhile, hours and hours later . . .I actually went to a few channels to see if anyone was around, see what was up and I eventually noticed the amount of points on the star on the pages.

Oookaaayyy. Something trying to tell me someone? Just call me Miss delerious. I sure hope I sleep through the night. Part of it was my fault, last night. I wear a CPAP mask at night for sleep apnea and you know? I am SICK of it and just couldn't get myself to put it on. So naturally, my body, needing to breath, silly it, woke me up so many times until I finally got the darn mask on. And I was just relaxing, falling to sleep when I heard a plaintive soft cry: "mmmoooommmmyyyy??"
I did get to sleep finally.

Just going through a difficult time on so many levels I'm surprised my brain hasn't imploded. But hey! I am amazon woman!

To mie mahre that I wrote emails to, I sincerely hope that they weren't as scrambled as my brain was when I wrote them. And I also hope I'm not as big a pain in the ass as I fear I am. I really don't want to complicate your lives, and I'm sorry that I have.

On a lighter note I am trying to get together some more recent pictures of me and my family to send out to you. :)

Brain is fading, gotta quit blogging and go bedding.